Y ME… y mE… Y ME… y me… Why always me?

OK this is a 10 minute rambling. I am not a workaholic and never wanna be so. Have you ever felt self pitied “why it happens to me”, or to sober “why always me”, or to shout “why why why meeeeeeeeeee”. The great MORDAC, which is one of the call processor servers I am currently working on, took the last 3 weeks of my life and more specifically kept me running on toe for the last 33 hours 48 minutes and 27 seconds. Now don’t ask how I know to this accuracy. I can even give the milli and micro seconds from the crash log. Totally new, insane, weird, mysterious, none heard errors and crashes occurred in this 1 server on which I have to work, when 8 other similar servers were up and running to the five 9 availability (thts 99.999% availability). So don’t I have all rights to shout “WHY MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE”. I thought so but then called up some of friends and heard from them lot more “Y ME” stories. After that I have to pat myself on my back and said “Dude u r not in tht deep $h**”. Is this a universal syndrome? I don’t know but seems to be. Out of the 10 calls I make in a day or two, all I hear when I ask “Hey dude whts spl and happening there?” the answer is “Nothing machan… same old story and screwed up with work”. Initially I used to ask “Wht the heck man… is there not one single thing happening?” But then the other end started asking “OK chap… we are so unlucky tht nothing much happening here… u tell whts happening in your side.” He he he he he for the same obvious reason tht nothing happening at my side also I couldn’t defend myself and have to shift the topic to more generic “How is Aishwarya Rai” “What could be the solution for Cauvery” “Who will be next PM, CM” blah blah blah. Why do we all earn? Don’t we all have something we yearn for? Are we spending tht quality time with what we earn for what we yearn? Are we going behind our real passion? Work is important but how important? But then there are times when the question of credibility about us that comes into picture especially in the work environment. Many say it’s for the satisfaction that I get by working so hard. But personally I would like to find all loopholes so that I can work smart and so far I have always found it. Don’t ask what tht is. Those are my work style secrets. Who ever reading this, are you also feeling so like any of the questions above?. Do drop a line. Now have to go home and catch up some good sleep. Will continue at the earliest possible time and I am sure that rambling gonna be one of the longest I ever made :-).

Adieu & Nice WE!